5.29.2013

a trial run...

I'm temporarily putting this blog on my other site the little things to see if I can merge the two. Like most things in life, keeping things simple and unfiltered are goals to live by...this is my attempt.

Thank you for reading.

summer nights

Summer is officially in full swing. With Caleb's final baseball playoff game this week, and daily trips outside with bubbles and pop-sickles it is definitely starting to feel a lot more like summer.

Next will be pool trips and outdoor barbecues. Maybe more firefly jars and used bottles of sunscreen will litter our back doorstep. If we're lucky...

There's just something about summer. It has so much potential.

The late nights outside riding bikes...we linger in nature a little more, despite the muggier temperatures.

So many great memories of my childhood summers. Now I get to try and recreate them. 

Pull up the lawn chair, bring out the cooler, we've got some outdoor livin' to do these next few months...

5.24.2013

Awake...

...this is what I miss.

I feel like I'm coasting through my days in a hazy cloud. Always half asleep, half awake.

Night shift for two years wears on you. It's good money. It's practical. It looks good on paper. And let's face it-it is easier. The doctors aren't in your face. Patients are asleep the majority of your shift. Well, the good ones.

It is hard on your body. Your mind. Your soul. Something is taken from you. Your life-giving spirit is broken. It is always tired. Laying in bed is easier than getting the energy to do something with your day.

I am ready to get off night shift. The change is coming...

5.21.2013

beachy weekend

Schoooooool's out for summer.

Totally put that song in your head, didn't I??

We're done with the school year and to celebrate we went on a little weekend trip to the beach. It was just what we needed to kick off the warm months ahead.


they slay me...just headed out to sea again, takin' on the ocean waves like Moby



In other awesome recent happenings...this one got accepted into UGA!! So proud! We knew he would be a Dawg someday =)

We enjoyed the family time and look forward to more opportunities to soak it up this summer...



 Sea, air and sun. 



So glad you could join us for a while Jess...good luck at Le Mans!!

5.15.2013

a day with me

Today I did something splendid.

Something I will do again and again.

I went to my favorite town, Madison, and had a day date with myself.

I looked at antiques. Had a picnic outside. Had a chai latte. I wrote.

Something about Madison reconnects me with my old soul. And it's wonderful.

I will do this again and again. It feeds me in ways I cannot explain.









5.12.2013

mothering

It's Mother's Day morning. As I sit here, brewing my morning cup of coffee, slowly opening up the blinds to let in the waking sun, I hear familiar weekend sounds...kids playing in their rooms, rather fighting, and I smile. All is well in my world.

Motherhood has seasons.

First you are born, like your new child, you are getting familiar with the world around you. Trying out the senses, finding yourself outside the womb. It's a scary yet sensational experience. Your heart living outside your body.

After time the cuts and scrapes of the world dig into your ideas of perfection. Your love wavers. Your resilience sets it. Suddenly life gives you new babies, new careers, new challenges that begin the balancing game. You find your groove and you thrive.

Throughout the routines and curve balls in which you've mastered there are opportunities for growth. Your kids are independent and now you're just an observer, learning the value of silence and watching. Interjecting when they have needs, but for the most part you offer a steady stream of strength and support.

They know. And you know they have been raised to greet the world with their talents. It all comes together and it is beautiful. There will be arguments. Awkward conversations. But mostly there will be beauty.

Life is beautiful and that first day, when you greeted them into this world...you knew. The little boy with curls, the little girl's toothless grin...they are what makes you. Your heart had been waiting for them since the beginning of time.

Because that is what a mother's love is...




5.09.2013

are we there yet?

We are so close to the end of the school year we can almost smell the ocean air.

It was another trip to the doctors office though this week...poor Katelynn had a flare up of conjunctivitis on the eve of her Pre-K graduation. She was a good sport about it though and after antibiotic drops (that cost $60!!) we are back at school for her last day.

Caleb has another week of school (poor kid) but we've been working hard on painting his room...I'll bet you never guess why he chose those colors =)

Caleb has been playing hard on the baseball field. The season is coming to an end just as he's been making great strides in his hitting and defensive plays. This week he even got rewarded with the game ball.

Some pictures from our week...hope y'all have a great weekend!





5.02.2013

show up

How do you move forward when you keep stumbling back?

How do you stay the course with a dimming North Star?

I used to think at a certain point life would become easier. I'd have it all mapped out. I've been searching for that moment, over and over again. I feel my way through the dark, still no glimmer of direction.

Frustration sets in.

This week I've had a few clues to get me on the right track.

-when given the choice between letting tension set in and breathing it out...pop in a mint and let it out baby

-when you find yourself eating for no reason at all, you're feeding your emotions instead of listening...as you pause to listen, you find you have a different hunger

-this world is out to break you any way it knows how...but only if you let it...it's not until you're nearly broken, when you realize what you're made of

-small things will add up if you don't take score...it sounds backwards but the more you try to tally the tinier they seem...don't steel their thunder, just take the moment and live in it

-there's a little voice inside all of us that resonates a very specific, very reasonable request...just show up...

and that's all we have to do