Today I decided to take a trip to some of my favorite places here. Nothing really in particular, just spaces that make Georgia really click into place for me.
Not that this should surprise anyone who knows us and our situation, but we are coming to a place of uncertainty.
You see, this all began almost 10 years ago. Mark and I decided to be a one-income family to support each other, going back to school. When you start a family at such a young age, without knowing much about yourself. Well, it does things to you. It forces you to question your place in this world.
We made the move to Georgia after years of contemplating, researching, and questioning. It all brought us here. To this moment.
In May, when Mark graduates, this will be a time for another possible monumental shift. We don't know where we will end up. Perhaps it is the type A, planner within us that demands to know. Demands to have control over a situation...
This is where we struggle.
We have to be open. Be open to the uncertainty. Be open to the questions. Be open to coming up short on answers. Open to what may or may not come.
I suppose this is why I needed today. To look at Georgia the same way I did when we first came. As wonderful as other places are, I needed to rediscover my love for this space. If we do stay here, I wanted to know that I could be okay with that too.
And I am.
More than okay.
Remember this. Remember these moments. As scary as the future can be, consider this: Life is an adventure.
You have two options: be numb to preserve yourself and sanity or feel the ever-living hell out of everything. I'll take latter, even if it means I'll hurt sometimes.
The kids wrapped up their soccer season tonight. We think they had fun...
Yeah, we got this.
Oh yeah, in case you hadn't heard, I was published on Mamalode's website this week. In case you missed it, check me out...all acting professional and everything ;-)
An Apology To My Body
Not that this should surprise anyone who knows us and our situation, but we are coming to a place of uncertainty.
You see, this all began almost 10 years ago. Mark and I decided to be a one-income family to support each other, going back to school. When you start a family at such a young age, without knowing much about yourself. Well, it does things to you. It forces you to question your place in this world.
We made the move to Georgia after years of contemplating, researching, and questioning. It all brought us here. To this moment.
In May, when Mark graduates, this will be a time for another possible monumental shift. We don't know where we will end up. Perhaps it is the type A, planner within us that demands to know. Demands to have control over a situation...
This is where we struggle.
We have to be open. Be open to the uncertainty. Be open to the questions. Be open to coming up short on answers. Open to what may or may not come.
I suppose this is why I needed today. To look at Georgia the same way I did when we first came. As wonderful as other places are, I needed to rediscover my love for this space. If we do stay here, I wanted to know that I could be okay with that too.
And I am.
More than okay.
Remember this. Remember these moments. As scary as the future can be, consider this: Life is an adventure.
You have two options: be numb to preserve yourself and sanity or feel the ever-living hell out of everything. I'll take latter, even if it means I'll hurt sometimes.
The kids wrapped up their soccer season tonight. We think they had fun...
Yeah, we got this.
Oh yeah, in case you hadn't heard, I was published on Mamalode's website this week. In case you missed it, check me out...all acting professional and everything ;-)
An Apology To My Body
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